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Akhirnya dia bilang semua itu. Bahwa aku terlalu tergantung padanya dan bahwa dia jengah. Jengah, atau dalam arti lain, tinggalkan aku sendiri untuk sementara.

Dia berkata sudah saatnya untuk mengurus dirinya, mencapai impiannya – seperti yang teman-temannya lakukan, dan bukan terjebak pada persoalan kegelisahan yang kualami.

“Aku semestinya mengurus apa yang menjadi tujuanku, bukan mengurus semua kegelisahanmu yang tak penting. Tetapi, apa aku setega itu?” ujarnya, menekankan pada kata kegelisahan. Pernyataan itu mengubah keadaaan menjadi ‘dia si lelaki malaikat’ dan aku ‘ si perempuan tak berdaya’. Baca lebih lanjut

Erica Jong quote, fear of flying


” You have a voice inside your head repeating I want, I want, I want, but you don’t know what you want or how to get it. You hardly know who you are. You go on instinct. And your instinct mostly pushes you toward adventures you won’t grasp until you look back on them. Life can only be understood backward, but it must be live forward, same sage once said.

.. She is wildly ambitious yet her romantic fantasies are forever getting in her way. She wants to break away from her parents, she wants to find herself — and yet she is driven by family forces she cant fully comprehend. She wants to break free of restraints but she keeps getting caught by new versions of the same old traps. She runs away from one man’s tyranny just to fall into the tyranny of another. She wants everything all at once. She has no serenity. She desperately wants to be a writer but she cant sit still…”

– Fear of Flying, Erica Jong-