Poem: I wish I could

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I wish I could have more interests in high politics discussions, diplomatic communications and power, but I couldn’t
I wish I could think more and feel less, but I couldn’t
I wish I could just stay at my own cocoon and think about my own comforts, but I couldn’t
I wish I could say something good about someone because wanting to take benefit from that person but act differently behind, but I couldn’t
I wish I could just be ‘okay’ with everything even though it’s against my core, but I couldn’t
I wish I could not feel others energies that much, but I couldn’t
I wish I am like most women, but I am not
What I feel, I say it right in front of you. What I see, I show it as it is.
But I believe someday I will know why we are doing the things we are doing, feelings the things we are feeling and saying the things we are saying. Why we become …. ourselves.
June poem, 2020.